Temple Redemption
I haven't written on here for over a year, but when I heard about the changes made to the temple ceremonies, I think I went into a little bit of shock. When I heard the news , my brain got all fuzzy and I couldn't think straight, for a while I felt kind of disembodied. I thought these changes would take decades to happen, at least. I imagine it might be a little bit like what it felt like for women to finally be able to vote, or for black people to be able to be endowed and receive the priesthood. This blog was where I spent years struggling through these issues. This was where I had to go to process the news. I was endowed in 2007. I spent twelve years feeling varying degrees of pain, confusion, degradation, sorrow, fear, and immense pressure because of the wording of the temple ceremonies. I went through intense psychological, spiritual, and emotional turmoil and upheaval because of the gender disparity there. I made deep and possibly irrevocable changes to my worldview, my